Sunday, November 23rd, 2008
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11.23.08 - 1.34am - I am crying to erase the tears.
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I've lost myself in media, peer pressure, uncontrollable yet unnecessary desire...
I want to make ends meet again, I don't want this life style anymore. Emotions aren't worth the heartache... not for this long.
Holy spirit, bless me with a chance to prove myself again.
I believe in you.
So will you believe in me?
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Wednesday, July 30th, 2008
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7.30.08 - 12.23pm
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Monday, July 28th, 2008
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7.28.08 - 8.03pm - True Sword Recovery
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Wednesday, March 19th, 2008
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3.19.08 - 2.00pm - Sprout on Display
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Monday, January 21st, 2008
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1.21.08 - 12.13pm - Back on Wireless
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So I saw Cloverfield...it made me get motion sick, which is def a feat.
That movie made me think of War of the Worlds. It wasnt a bad movie I guess.
( and now back to my internet... )
Toodles-Chu
-K@
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Wednesday, January 16th, 2008
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1.16.08 - 1.23pm - I am the black sheep; I was never like you
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We live in a world where changing who you are makes you the better person.
So I guess our original personalities don't quite cut it.
Human beings are naturally fragile, imperfect, and crude.
and who could ask fer more?
Chu
-K@
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Wednesday, January 9th, 2008
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1.9.08 - 10.58pm - Growing bud
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Friday, December 28th, 2007
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12.28.07 - 12.39am - Yeah you saw it coming
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Dont act so surprised...
Some people need me more then I need them. Seriously, people, take a hint. The whole project recovery shit just proves what I was talking about; the reason I told you to stop talking to me was because of yer sneaky ass.
Don't disrespect me and don't act like Im the dirt beneath you. Maybe other girls fall fer that bullshit, but I'm tired of people who think they can manipulate everyone.
Yer not fooling me, I can see right through you.
Find someone more gullible, you already lost yer chance to be my friend.
I've learned my lesson, Im not about to repeat my mistakes.
Ive had my flings, and now Im done.
I'm ready to grow up and have a steady life.
Sometimes I just want to shut the net off lolz
Chu
-K@
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Friday, December 14th, 2007
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12.14.07 - 12.00pm - Much Needed Vacation
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We finished Bioshock today, and we saw I Am Legend.
I love being in this apartment, I get to do fun things.
The last three days have been exciting. :]
Chu
-K@
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Wednesday, December 5th, 2007
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12.5.07 - 9.58am
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( Luckily, I have no class tomorrow )
Tomorrow fer drawing class our teacher told us that we didnt have to show up. He said that as long as we draw something to show him on Monday, its all gravy. We can draw whatever we want, so I'm drawing the Pokemon trainer from Super Smash Bros. Some other guy in my class is drawing Samus, and I know theres a girl who wants to draw Pikachu.
Art school is def where its at.
Chu-burger
-K@
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Thursday, November 29th, 2007
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11.29.07 - 2.04pm - Squeeze real soft
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Some people were born with a type of genius others can only dream of.
Most people are the same, most people follow one another because they can't think on their own.
Babies imitate to survive.
A majority will never grow out of it.
Talent is special.
The talented are one in a million.
They display themselves as artwork;
Something other people envy.
So talent is the theater and the talented are the entertainment.
They are what we wish fer; our regrets of misfortune from birth.
They play our roles the way we wish our real lives were.
We are all sad shadows of what we want to be.
We pretend to see ourselves up on that screen.
We cry when we want to, we clap when we see fit.
But dreaming big will get you no where,
Cutting out those pictures from magazines,
Throwing those posters over the wall...
Disguising the truth through our clothing, our appearences, how we talk... Its all complete bullshit because its not who you really are.
Only through understanding of our real situation can we achieve the roles we desire.
Can we actually be happy with ourselves.
The things you see on television aren't real, they're actors, they're not like that in real life. Never has it hit me so hard, never have I actually understood what it meant to toss away fake images.
If this is what it means to grow up, I never want to go back to how it was.
I like knowing the sad truth of my past, of my childhood.
The lies I grew up from have only bettered me.
Sometimes I want to hide from the responsiblity of growing up, but I've found that it gets more comfortable through my acceptance. I've constantly made mistakes that I've learn from. I don't regret who I am or what I've become. I can smile when I wake up, even if everything is a mess.
Those people who told me to always be yerself, knew exactly what they were talking about. Even if its hard to be yerself in a society like this, theres always a way to pull through.
Happy Birthday to me.
Chu
-K@
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Sunday, October 7th, 2007
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10.7.07 - 11.09pm - White hates winter
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Sunday, August 12th, 2007
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8.12.07 - 2.20pm
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Thursday, August 2nd, 2007
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8.2.07 - 8.27am - Sukiyo
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Always pick the one you love, not the one you like.
Chu
-K@
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Tuesday, July 31st, 2007
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7.31.07 - 8.06pm - the sour subject of
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Wednesday, July 18th, 2007
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7.18.07 - 7.40am - breaking hearts
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I want to isolate myself.
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Friday, July 13th, 2007
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7.13.07 - 4.19am - These games are scary
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Tuesday, July 10th, 2007
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7.10.07 - 9.39pm - alas
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I was a tad late in sending my application fees (whatev), so now I dont have a spot on campus to live.
Which means I havta get an apartment.
I feel bad that it'll be more money.
But... hell its gunna be all my own.
I wouldnt mind getting a job to keep it either.
Its exactly what I wanted.
Chu
-K@
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Thursday, June 28th, 2007
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6.28.07 - 12.35am
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people share everything with each other.
never say something to someone and not expect them to tell that person.
always be prepared to be confronted.
or maybe you just said that stuff because you knew it would get around...
its funny I suppose to hear how upset they get, and yet they pretend its nothing; you know its not nothing to them. They wouldnt bring it up to you if it wasnt bothering them...
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whatever. I dont feel like talking to anyone anymore anyways.
Chu
-K@
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Friday, June 22nd, 2007
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6.22.07 - 3.30am
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i dont like sitting here, feeling this way.
i feel so dettached from something that seemed so familar.
It kinda hurts...still. Maybe I'll never get over this feeling.
I feel disowned in a way, like I dont belong in that certain place anymore.
Im stuck in this frame of mind; its lonely here.
I cant get over how distraught I am.
"be strong" my friend says
it makes me want to cry
he tries so hard to get me through it
but I cant bring myself to take anyones advice.
I want to feel like it belongs to me again...
but it implies that it wants to be distant.
Im insecure. Everything feels uncomfortable.
I wish he would just say something to fix all this...
but he remains silent on the matter...
maybe Im just not important anymore
you would think Id be use to it by now :[
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